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tomas_room2i reallyyy want to write a toma fic, but i don't have any really good ideas. but there have been some ideas that have been stuck in my head for a while now. and there are so few toma fics these days.... so i'm just gonna go ahead and see what i can come up with. maybe i'll write a little every few days, so it doesn't get 2 be overwhelming.... also this time, i'm going 2 actually write it the way it should be written, rather than like a script like i always did before. lol.
i dunno if anyone will actually read/like this, but if you do, please comment! i'll just keep adding to this post... i guess it's because i want a toma drama so badly and also cuz i've been reading some manga lately, that is making me really wanna write something....^^ i guess it'll be a love triangle, and i want them to be in NYC. that's all i've come up with so far. xD
so here goes....
(still untitled, but i thought it'd be nice 2 have a pic of the 3 main characters up. ^^
took a while 2 find this yamapi pic where his hair looks normal. why is yamapi's hair so long/curly/bad almost all the time?? he looks better with straight and regular length hair!! even though i've been complaining about toma's bad hair recently, thank goodness toma still has nice hair most of the time, unlike yamapi, who's had bad hair since his johnny's jr. days till now. o_O)
jan. 11: 1st update!!
it took longer 2 write and is longer than i wanted, but oh well. i like how this "scene" turned out. i guess i'm trying 2 think of it like a movie...i don't want anything 2 drag on for too long. more info about toma and yamashita and surprise~ ohno is his artist roommate!!! next update...i think gakky will show up. yey!! (sorry if i made any typos, i tried 2 check for them, but i'm sure i missed some.)
oh, i guess i should have written this earlier, but here goes:
characters: Ikuta Toma, Yamashita Tomohisa, Aragaki Yui, Satoshi Ohno, etc.
location: New York City
synopsis: love triangle between toma, his best friend yamashita, and his ex-girlfriend yui.
rating: not sure yet, but it'll probably be PG-13. xD
Toma woke up in the middle of the night when he heard the chime from his phone. He sat up in bed, rubbing his eyes and looked at his digital clock and then his cell phone. It was 4:19am and someone had sent him a text. Toma already knew who it was from and it made him nervous. He ignored it and stared out the window at the starry night sky. The moon was full and its light filled Toma's room with a beautiful, ethereal glow. Why couldn't it have been a dream?
It really happened. He really did break up with his girlfriend last week. He felt lonely and kept going to his best friend's apartment to eat dinner and watch movies together. And to drink a lot to numb the pain. Yamashita had always been there for him. He hugged Toma when he started crying and consoled him. But then he did something he had never done before...he kissed him. At first Toma was shocked and didn't know what to do. But then he somehow found himself kissing him back and holding him tighter. Only when Yamashita's phone suddenly rang did they stop. They stared at each other awkwardly for a moment before Toma made up an excuse and quickly left before his friend could say anything.
"Why did he do that?" Toma mumbled to himself, before laying down and touching his lips, remembering their passionate kiss.
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Even though Toma barely got any sleep last night, he still woke up at 8 because today is saturday. And saturday is gym day. Even though it's going to be awkward, he'll go. They should talk about what happened anyway. After he finishes getting ready, he notices a note stuck on the door as he's putting on his shoes. "Don't forget to meet me at the art gallery tonight at 6pm! -ohno". Toma smiles and glances into his roommate's room. He's still asleep, all curled up on his bed. He probably stayed up late painting again. One of his paintings will be displayed at a small art gallery tonight and he's been so excited about that. Ohno and Toma have been friends since they were kids and toma thinks of him like as his big brother. Of course he'll come tonight to support him! Toma quickly writes something below Ohno's message and closes the door behind him. It says "see you there! -your biggest fan <3"
As he stands in the crowded train, uncomfortably surrounded by people, Toma remembers the first time he met Yamashita. They were standing next to each other at a rock concert a few years ago. Toma actually thought he was a girl at first, but realized soon enough that he was a guy. They talked after the concert and introduced themselves..."i'm a nurse" (Toma)..."i'm a music teacher" (Yamashita). They discovered they liked the same bands, exchanged phone numbers and emails, and became best friends really fast. They often texted each other, go out to dinner, go to the movies, go to the gym, play video games, etc, together. Ohno would even joke about how Yamashita is his boyfriend because Toma talked about him so much!
It's not that Toma hadn't noticed how cute he is, but he never thought of him in that way...Sure, he is a good-looking guy and Toma is really envious of all his muscles...and how cool, yet down-to-earth he is. Also, he has this certain sadness in his eyes sometimes that really draws Toma to him and makes him want to cheer him up and see him smile again. Honestly, there have been moments where maybe he has felt attracted to him, but isn't it normal to have those feelings towards people of the same gender sometimes (especially if they're really cute)? It doesn't mean Toma has romantic feelings for him. Although sometimes he can't help staring at his full lips and wondering if he is a good kisser.
Toma's face turns red as he remembers their kiss from last night. He is a good kisser, after all... "BUT WHY DID HE KISS ME AND WHY DID I KISS HIM BACK??!!" Toma thought. "It must be because we got too drunk and I've been missing Yui so much," Toma reassured himself. He kept repeating it over and over in his head and telling himself to act like everything is fine when he meets Yamashita at the gym.
Soon, Toma had arrived in front of the gym. He looked up at the building and swallowed nervously before he opened the door. He went into the changing room and there was Yamashita, standing in front of his open locker. He looked at Toma and smiled like usual.
"Good morning." Yamashita said with a nod.
"Hi...morning." Toma stammered.
His heart was racing and his face was turning red again. Toma wished there were other people here, but they were the only ones here.
"Did you run here or something, your face is-" Yamashita asked.
"Yeah, i ran here because i had to go to the bathroom" Toma lied, and quickly opened a locker and put his gym bag down.
"Toma..." Yamashita's tone turned serious and he moved closer to him.
"Hmm?" Toma tried to calm down as he turned to face him.
"About last night...I'm sorry...I guess I got too drunk and..." Yamashita scratched his head and looked somewhere else.
"Oh...me too!" Toma laughed awkwardly as he bent down and unzipped his bag. "I guess I thought you were my girlfriend...ex-girlfriend, i mean. you're always saying i look girly, so maybe you thought i was a girl right then. hahaha...It's ok, let's just forget what happened. It's no big deal!" Toma rambled.
"Yeah!" Yamashita laughed. "I guess that's what happened. We really shouldn't drink so much anymore! Come on, let's hurry up." He said, as he took his clothes out of his bag and Toma nodded and smiled.
Toma always felt a little embarrassed when changing his clothes in front of Yamashita because he was in better shape, even though they never really looked at each other while they changed. But today Toma couldn't help noticing Yamashita as he changed, out of the corner of his eye. He was taking off his t-shirt. His heart was beating fast again as Yamashita unzipped his jeans and he could see a little of his underwear. even though the boxers he was wearing had cute little yellow ducks on it (Toma had given it to him for his birthday a while back.), Toma bit his lip and couldn't help thinking....that he looked really sexy.
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After they worked out, Yamashita asked him to go get lunch together, so they went to McDonald's. Yamashita shook out some fries for Toma because he couldn't finish all of it. A few fell onto Toma's lap. Toma was going to brush it away but Yamashita picked them up and held it in front of Toma's face.
"Don't be wasteful~" he said with a smile.
"Oh...thanks..." Toma awkwardly said as he opened his mouth so Yamashita could feed it to him.
He sat down on the other side of the booth and licked the salt off his fingers, as Toma watched him.
"No...nothing's wrong." Toma quickly replied, looking somewhere else. "Umm...I was just thinking about something."
"Actually, that reminds me...I wanted to ask you something." Yamashita said, as Toma was eating his cheeseburger.
"What is it?" Toma asked, taking a sip of his coke.
"Have you ever liked someone that you shouldn't like?" Yamashita asked casually.
"Ehhhh...?" Toma panicked. Was he being too obvious? Did he know??
"Because I have a student that likes me, and even though i've rejected her, she won't give up." Yamashita said as he frowned and rested his head on one hand.
"ohh...i see." Toma nodded, relieved.
"I was wondering if you had any advice...like what would make you give up on a person you know you can't be with..." He said with a sigh.
"hmm..." Toma pursed his lips and thought.
"she is really cute and clever though...i have wondered if i should give her a chance after our violin lessons are over and i'm not her teacher anymore." Yamashita mused.
"really?? but...how old is she?" Toma asked, seeming a little upset.
"she's 18. so...8 years younger than i am." He replied.
"i don't think it's a good idea" Toma said, frowning and folding his arms. "she's too young for you."
"but-" Yamashita was interrupted by a girl who waved and ran up to him suddenly.
"sensei~!" she cried. "i'm glad to see you! could we change the lesson time to one hour earlier? because i forgot that i have a dentist appointment today. i called you, but your phone was off."
"sure!" Yamashita replied, looking up and smiling at her. "sorry, i forgot to turn my phone back on after going to the gym."
"it's ok...great! thank you!" she said, smiling back at him and touching his arm lightly. "I have to go now." She said, nodding politely at toma and then rushing off.
"well...that's who i was talking about...Haruna." Yamashita announced, still looking in her direction. "and we only have a few lessons left."
"she's not that cute" Toma muttered, as he took another bite of his cheeseburger.
Actually, she is just the kind of girl that Yamashita usually dates. Pretty, big eyes, long hair, and likes to wear short skirts. Toma wonders if he really will go out with her. After all, Yamashita hasn't been seeing anyone for around a year now.
Toma walks up the steps leading to the entrance of the building where the art gallery was being held. He enters and looks at his watch. 6:01pm. He loosens his tie a little and looks for ohno. he glances at the paintings while making his way through the crowd. soon he sees ohno standing in front of his painting. Toma was about to wave to him, when he sees the person talking to him. Yui?? His ex-girlfriend! She looks lovely in that white flowy dress, and with her hair up like that. Toma takes a deep breath. He smooths his shirt, adjusts his jacket, and starts walking towards them.
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toma is so envious of him. even though he isn't the most successful artist, he's doing something he loves. toma dreams of being an artist too, but one who acts or sings. he was a drama major and had big dreams of becoming a star in new york city. but being a struggling actor and living in expensive NYC is a bad combination. toma got tired of being behind on bills all the time and borrowing money from friends, so he went to nursing school and became a nurse to make ends meet. but he still sometimes auditions for commercials, plays, tv dramas, and enters singing contests. so far he has only found work as an extra on random commercials and tv dramas, but he won't give up on his dream! although sometimes he wonders if maybe he would have better chances if he went back to japan.
"congratulations! i'm so proud of you!" toma smiled and hugged him.
"thanks!" ohno smiled as toma let him go and then shook his hand.
"congrats again!" yui said cheerfully.
"thanks! but if you'll excuse me, i'm going to go mingle a bit" ohno said nonchalantly.
"wait, i just came-" toma was interrupted by ohno, who pulled him close and whispered "try to get her back, idiot! i like her! AND...she makes really good cupcakes!!" he made a you-better-not-mess-this-up stern face at toma before he disappeared into the crowd.
"So, how have you been?" she asked.
"don't worry, i'm...fine. what about you?" he said.
"I'm ok..." she said and then looked down at the floor and pursed her lips, not sure of what else to say.
"umm...do you want to look at the paintings together?" toma blurted out, part of him hoping she would say no.
"ok." she replied.
he kissed her gently on the cheek and everyone screamed "kawaiiiii!!" as they took a lot of pictures. it was more embarrassing than romantic! but that was kind of like their first kiss. they talked to each other some more and discovered that they both worked as nurses at the same hospital. they exchanged phone numbers and soon they were often meeting for lunch at the hospital cafeteria. after a few weeks, toma finally worked up the nerve to ask her out on a date. they went to the Metropolitan museum of art on a particularly lovely afternoon, with blue skies and drifting white clouds. They wandered into the Cloisters gardens, which has romantic medieval architecture and a lush green garden. Toma figured this would be the perfect place to ask her to be his girlfriend...
"wow..." she said quietly, awed by the beauty of the garden.
"toma, what's wrong? did you hear what i said?" yui asked, as she tapped his arm, bringing toma back to reality.
"i...i like you! will you be my girlfriend?" he blurted out.
yui was a little surprised and looked down a moment before she smiled at him, nodding, and replied, "i like you too..." toma smiled back at her and hugged her tightly. and then he pulled her closer and kissed her gently on the lips. their real first kiss was such a sweet and unforgettable moment...
to him, she was just the sweetest and most caring girlfriend ever! it didn't matter what they did together, he was just happy to be with her. on their dates, they would usually go to the movies, go window shopping, or take a walk at central park. but what he loved most was cuddling with her on the couch under a blanket and watching a movie and eating popcorn together.
for their one year anniversary, toma had planned a special weekend for them at the beach. they would have a romantic picnic on the beach, then a romantic dinner at a fancy hotel nearby, then spend the night together for the first time at a beautiful room there. the next day, they would do some sightseeing and maybe spend the day at the hotel's spa together, getting massages or something. or they could swim in the hotel pool. little did he know, she was going to break up with him that day...
"are you cold?" toma asked her, about to unbutton his jacket to give to her.
"not really..." she replied blankly, her mind elsewhere, as she brushed her hair away from her face. the light breeze from before had grown stronge, colder.
something was wrong, but toma had no idea what. she looked troubled the last few days and even though she said she was looking forward to their anniversary, she did not seem very happy at all today. he kept asking her if there was something wrong, but she kept saying everything is fine.
that's when she stopped walking and slowly let go of his hand. she started to cry. "i'm sorry toma...we...we have to break up." she stammered. toma could only stare at her, speechless. did she really just say that?
that was the last time they talked to each other. sometimes they would walk by each other in the corridors of the hospital, but neither knew what to say and only nodded or a glanced at each other before they moved on.
"toma, look at that painting. it kind of looks like my cat!" she giggled and pointed.
"toma..." her voice trembled as she spoke. she fidgeted with the beaded white clutch in her hands. "i'm really sorry we can't be together...but can't we be friends? i miss talking to you. i don't want us to act like strangers when we see each other at the hospital..."
toma thought for a moment and pouted cutely. "we'll always be friends! let's forget about what happened last year. and i miss talking to you too..."
as soon as he said that, yui suddenly hugged him tightly. "i'm so glad you feel the same way, toma! i'm really happy..." toma hugged her back and nodded, patting her back. but now that he's holding her in his arms, he knows that he doesn't feel the same way...he still loves her. he doesn't want to forget all the sweet moments they had together. but if he can't be her boyfriend, at least he can be her friend for now. though he'll always hope that she'll change her mind one day and come back to him.
i dunno if anyone will actually read/like this, but if you do, please comment! i'll just keep adding to this post... i guess it's because i want a toma drama so badly and also cuz i've been reading some manga lately, that is making me really wanna write something....^^ i guess it'll be a love triangle, and i want them to be in NYC. that's all i've come up with so far. xD
so here goes....
(still untitled, but i thought it'd be nice 2 have a pic of the 3 main characters up. ^^
took a while 2 find this yamapi pic where his hair looks normal. why is yamapi's hair so long/curly/bad almost all the time?? he looks better with straight and regular length hair!! even though i've been complaining about toma's bad hair recently, thank goodness toma still has nice hair most of the time, unlike yamapi, who's had bad hair since his johnny's jr. days till now. o_O)
jan. 11: 1st update!!
it took longer 2 write and is longer than i wanted, but oh well. i like how this "scene" turned out. i guess i'm trying 2 think of it like a movie...i don't want anything 2 drag on for too long. more info about toma and yamashita and surprise~ ohno is his artist roommate!!! next update...i think gakky will show up. yey!! (sorry if i made any typos, i tried 2 check for them, but i'm sure i missed some.)
oh, i guess i should have written this earlier, but here goes:
characters: Ikuta Toma, Yamashita Tomohisa, Aragaki Yui, Satoshi Ohno, etc.
location: New York City
synopsis: love triangle between toma, his best friend yamashita, and his ex-girlfriend yui.
rating: not sure yet, but it'll probably be PG-13. xD
Toma woke up in the middle of the night when he heard the chime from his phone. He sat up in bed, rubbing his eyes and looked at his digital clock and then his cell phone. It was 4:19am and someone had sent him a text. Toma already knew who it was from and it made him nervous. He ignored it and stared out the window at the starry night sky. The moon was full and its light filled Toma's room with a beautiful, ethereal glow. Why couldn't it have been a dream?
It really happened. He really did break up with his girlfriend last week. He felt lonely and kept going to his best friend's apartment to eat dinner and watch movies together. And to drink a lot to numb the pain. Yamashita had always been there for him. He hugged Toma when he started crying and consoled him. But then he did something he had never done before...he kissed him. At first Toma was shocked and didn't know what to do. But then he somehow found himself kissing him back and holding him tighter. Only when Yamashita's phone suddenly rang did they stop. They stared at each other awkwardly for a moment before Toma made up an excuse and quickly left before his friend could say anything.
"Why did he do that?" Toma mumbled to himself, before laying down and touching his lips, remembering their passionate kiss.
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Even though Toma barely got any sleep last night, he still woke up at 8 because today is saturday. And saturday is gym day. Even though it's going to be awkward, he'll go. They should talk about what happened anyway. After he finishes getting ready, he notices a note stuck on the door as he's putting on his shoes. "Don't forget to meet me at the art gallery tonight at 6pm! -ohno". Toma smiles and glances into his roommate's room. He's still asleep, all curled up on his bed. He probably stayed up late painting again. One of his paintings will be displayed at a small art gallery tonight and he's been so excited about that. Ohno and Toma have been friends since they were kids and toma thinks of him like as his big brother. Of course he'll come tonight to support him! Toma quickly writes something below Ohno's message and closes the door behind him. It says "see you there! -your biggest fan <3"
As he stands in the crowded train, uncomfortably surrounded by people, Toma remembers the first time he met Yamashita. They were standing next to each other at a rock concert a few years ago. Toma actually thought he was a girl at first, but realized soon enough that he was a guy. They talked after the concert and introduced themselves..."i'm a nurse" (Toma)..."i'm a music teacher" (Yamashita). They discovered they liked the same bands, exchanged phone numbers and emails, and became best friends really fast. They often texted each other, go out to dinner, go to the movies, go to the gym, play video games, etc, together. Ohno would even joke about how Yamashita is his boyfriend because Toma talked about him so much!
It's not that Toma hadn't noticed how cute he is, but he never thought of him in that way...Sure, he is a good-looking guy and Toma is really envious of all his muscles...and how cool, yet down-to-earth he is. Also, he has this certain sadness in his eyes sometimes that really draws Toma to him and makes him want to cheer him up and see him smile again. Honestly, there have been moments where maybe he has felt attracted to him, but isn't it normal to have those feelings towards people of the same gender sometimes (especially if they're really cute)? It doesn't mean Toma has romantic feelings for him. Although sometimes he can't help staring at his full lips and wondering if he is a good kisser.
Toma's face turns red as he remembers their kiss from last night. He is a good kisser, after all... "BUT WHY DID HE KISS ME AND WHY DID I KISS HIM BACK??!!" Toma thought. "It must be because we got too drunk and I've been missing Yui so much," Toma reassured himself. He kept repeating it over and over in his head and telling himself to act like everything is fine when he meets Yamashita at the gym.
Soon, Toma had arrived in front of the gym. He looked up at the building and swallowed nervously before he opened the door. He went into the changing room and there was Yamashita, standing in front of his open locker. He looked at Toma and smiled like usual.
"Good morning." Yamashita said with a nod.
"Hi...morning." Toma stammered.
His heart was racing and his face was turning red again. Toma wished there were other people here, but they were the only ones here.
"Did you run here or something, your face is-" Yamashita asked.
"Yeah, i ran here because i had to go to the bathroom" Toma lied, and quickly opened a locker and put his gym bag down.
"Toma..." Yamashita's tone turned serious and he moved closer to him.
"Hmm?" Toma tried to calm down as he turned to face him.
"About last night...I'm sorry...I guess I got too drunk and..." Yamashita scratched his head and looked somewhere else.
"Oh...me too!" Toma laughed awkwardly as he bent down and unzipped his bag. "I guess I thought you were my girlfriend...ex-girlfriend, i mean. you're always saying i look girly, so maybe you thought i was a girl right then. hahaha...It's ok, let's just forget what happened. It's no big deal!" Toma rambled.
"Yeah!" Yamashita laughed. "I guess that's what happened. We really shouldn't drink so much anymore! Come on, let's hurry up." He said, as he took his clothes out of his bag and Toma nodded and smiled.
Toma always felt a little embarrassed when changing his clothes in front of Yamashita because he was in better shape, even though they never really looked at each other while they changed. But today Toma couldn't help noticing Yamashita as he changed, out of the corner of his eye. He was taking off his t-shirt. His heart was beating fast again as Yamashita unzipped his jeans and he could see a little of his underwear. even though the boxers he was wearing had cute little yellow ducks on it (Toma had given it to him for his birthday a while back.), Toma bit his lip and couldn't help thinking....that he looked really sexy.
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Toma is so confused by his feelings for Yamashita right now. It's like after they kissed, he can't think of him in the same way. he thinks he wants to be...more than friends with him. But does Yamashita feel the same way? But he has always seemed straight to Toma and Toma has always thought of himself as only liking girls. Is it because he just broke up with his girlfriend and he's feeling lonely? Is it just a phase??
After they worked out, Yamashita asked him to go get lunch together, so they went to McDonald's. Yamashita shook out some fries for Toma because he couldn't finish all of it. A few fell onto Toma's lap. Toma was going to brush it away but Yamashita picked them up and held it in front of Toma's face.
"Don't be wasteful~" he said with a smile.
"Oh...thanks..." Toma awkwardly said as he opened his mouth so Yamashita could feed it to him.
He sat down on the other side of the booth and licked the salt off his fingers, as Toma watched him.
"What's wrong?" Yamashita asked, pouting. "Something wrong with my hair?" He touches his hair and tries to fix it.
"No...nothing's wrong." Toma quickly replied, looking somewhere else. "Umm...I was just thinking about something."
"Actually, that reminds me...I wanted to ask you something." Yamashita said, as Toma was eating his cheeseburger.
"What is it?" Toma asked, taking a sip of his coke.
"Have you ever liked someone that you shouldn't like?" Yamashita asked casually.
"Ehhhh...?" Toma panicked. Was he being too obvious? Did he know??
"Because I have a student that likes me, and even though i've rejected her, she won't give up." Yamashita said as he frowned and rested his head on one hand.
"ohh...i see." Toma nodded, relieved.
"I was wondering if you had any advice...like what would make you give up on a person you know you can't be with..." He said with a sigh.
"hmm..." Toma pursed his lips and thought.
"she is really cute and clever though...i have wondered if i should give her a chance after our violin lessons are over and i'm not her teacher anymore." Yamashita mused.
"really?? but...how old is she?" Toma asked, seeming a little upset.
"she's 18. so...8 years younger than i am." He replied.
"i don't think it's a good idea" Toma said, frowning and folding his arms. "she's too young for you."
"but-" Yamashita was interrupted by a girl who waved and ran up to him suddenly.
"sensei~!" she cried. "i'm glad to see you! could we change the lesson time to one hour earlier? because i forgot that i have a dentist appointment today. i called you, but your phone was off."
[pics of Kawaguchi Haruna, if you don't know her. she was in the live action ouran host club drama last summer!
"sure!" Yamashita replied, looking up and smiling at her. "sorry, i forgot to turn my phone back on after going to the gym."
"it's ok...great! thank you!" she said, smiling back at him and touching his arm lightly. "I have to go now." She said, nodding politely at toma and then rushing off.
"well...that's who i was talking about...Haruna." Yamashita announced, still looking in her direction. "and we only have a few lessons left."
"she's not that cute" Toma muttered, as he took another bite of his cheeseburger.
Actually, she is just the kind of girl that Yamashita usually dates. Pretty, big eyes, long hair, and likes to wear short skirts. Toma wonders if he really will go out with her. After all, Yamashita hasn't been seeing anyone for around a year now.
Toma walks up the steps leading to the entrance of the building where the art gallery was being held. He enters and looks at his watch. 6:01pm. He loosens his tie a little and looks for ohno. he glances at the paintings while making his way through the crowd. soon he sees ohno standing in front of his painting. Toma was about to wave to him, when he sees the person talking to him. Yui?? His ex-girlfriend! She looks lovely in that white flowy dress, and with her hair up like that. Toma takes a deep breath. He smooths his shirt, adjusts his jacket, and starts walking towards them.
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Toma tries to hide his anxiety as he taps ohno on the shoulder and both he and yui turn around. yui nods and smiles at him as if everything is ok, and she did not break his heart just last week. but toma can't help but smile back at her and think that he loves seeing her sweet smile. toma quickly turns to glare at ohno as if to say "WHY did you invite her?!" ohno shrugs his shoulder and has a helpless and confused expression on his face as if to say "i invited her a few weeks ago. i didn't know you two would break up. AND that she would still show up after the breakup! it's not my fault..." toma sighed quietly and admired the colorful abstract painting, full of random swirls of colors and shapes. the title reads "Ambiguity".
toma is so envious of him. even though he isn't the most successful artist, he's doing something he loves. toma dreams of being an artist too, but one who acts or sings. he was a drama major and had big dreams of becoming a star in new york city. but being a struggling actor and living in expensive NYC is a bad combination. toma got tired of being behind on bills all the time and borrowing money from friends, so he went to nursing school and became a nurse to make ends meet. but he still sometimes auditions for commercials, plays, tv dramas, and enters singing contests. so far he has only found work as an extra on random commercials and tv dramas, but he won't give up on his dream! although sometimes he wonders if maybe he would have better chances if he went back to japan.
"congratulations! i'm so proud of you!" toma smiled and hugged him.
"thanks!" ohno smiled as toma let him go and then shook his hand.
"congrats again!" yui said cheerfully.
"thanks! but if you'll excuse me, i'm going to go mingle a bit" ohno said nonchalantly.
"wait, i just came-" toma was interrupted by ohno, who pulled him close and whispered "try to get her back, idiot! i like her! AND...she makes really good cupcakes!!" he made a you-better-not-mess-this-up stern face at toma before he disappeared into the crowd.
"This is bad..." Toma thinks, as he turns back towards Yui and tries to think of something to say. Yui knew he was nervous and broke the silence first.
"So, how have you been?" she asked.
"don't worry, i'm...fine. what about you?" he said.
"I'm ok..." she said and then looked down at the floor and pursed her lips, not sure of what else to say.
"umm...do you want to look at the paintings together?" toma blurted out, part of him hoping she would say no.
"ok." she replied.
They started walking down the long hall, joining the art lovers in appreciating the beautiful paintings. but toma is distracted. he still wonders why she broke up with him so suddenly recently. it's not like they were having any big problems with their relationship. actually, toma even thought they were meant to be together.
The first time they met was at an anime/manga convention. It was the first time toma tried cosplaying and he went as nakatsu. she went as mizuki. not a lot of people were dressed as hana kimi characters, so they stood out and noticed each other quickly. and of course, because she looked really cute!
they were just making small talk and complimenting each others' costumes, when some people came by and wanted them to pose together. then someone said they should kiss! they had politely rejected, but the fangirls kept insisting, so...
"umm...is it ok if i just kiss you on the cheek then?" toma mumbled, his face already turning red.
"umm...i guess that's alright" she shyly replied, blushing a little.
he kissed her gently on the cheek and everyone screamed "kawaiiiii!!" as they took a lot of pictures. it was more embarrassing than romantic! but that was kind of like their first kiss. they talked to each other some more and discovered that they both worked as nurses at the same hospital. they exchanged phone numbers and soon they were often meeting for lunch at the hospital cafeteria. after a few weeks, toma finally worked up the nerve to ask her out on a date. they went to the Metropolitan museum of art on a particularly lovely afternoon, with blue skies and drifting white clouds. They wandered into the Cloisters gardens, which has romantic medieval architecture and a lush green garden. Toma figured this would be the perfect place to ask her to be his girlfriend...
"wow..." she said quietly, awed by the beauty of the garden.
"yeah...it's beautiful." toma replied cheerfully, wanting to put his arm around her shoulder, but he didn't.
people kept walking back and forth and he wondered if they would be able to have a private moment together. he was also getting nervous and thinking that maybe he had it all wrong and she only wanted to be friends. a girl like her, so pretty, smart and witty...and just so perfect. why would she like him? Then again, they got along so well and she seemed to like him right? But he's been wrong a lot of times in the past and this time he even works in the same place as her! it would be so awkward to have to see her everyday after she rejected him. but he really likes her and he's gotta try asking her out or else he'll definitely regret it if she ends up dating someone else!
people kept walking back and forth and he wondered if they would be able to have a private moment together. he was also getting nervous and thinking that maybe he had it all wrong and she only wanted to be friends. a girl like her, so pretty, smart and witty...and just so perfect. why would she like him? Then again, they got along so well and she seemed to like him right? But he's been wrong a lot of times in the past and this time he even works in the same place as her! it would be so awkward to have to see her everyday after she rejected him. but he really likes her and he's gotta try asking her out or else he'll definitely regret it if she ends up dating someone else!
"toma, what's wrong? did you hear what i said?" yui asked, as she tapped his arm, bringing toma back to reality.
he had totally zoned out and hasn't been listening to her at all! but finally they were alone and toma had to say it before he changed his mind (again).
"i...i like you! will you be my girlfriend?" he blurted out.
yui was a little surprised and looked down a moment before she smiled at him, nodding, and replied, "i like you too..." toma smiled back at her and hugged her tightly. and then he pulled her closer and kissed her gently on the lips. their real first kiss was such a sweet and unforgettable moment...
(pics and info about this garden/museum! *_*
http://www.metmuseum.org/visit/visit-the-cloisters/
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2010/09/16/spend-a-day-in-nyc-the-cl_n_717837.html
http://edcollyer.wordpress.com/tag/the-cloisters/)
sometimes they would sneak off into an empty room of the hospital or the rooftop to kiss. toma even looked up tips on how to kiss better. he just wanted to be the best boyfriend possible for her... he tried to come see her at least once each day at the hospital, even if he had a lot of work to do and he knew they would meet after they get off work anyway. they tried to eat lunch together daily and she would often bring extra snacks for him, like cupcakes she made or chips she bought from the vending machine. they always sent each other good night texts, randomly cute pictures of themselves, and talked on the phone a lot when their shifts at the hospital didn't match up.
to him, she was just the sweetest and most caring girlfriend ever! it didn't matter what they did together, he was just happy to be with her. on their dates, they would usually go to the movies, go window shopping, or take a walk at central park. but what he loved most was cuddling with her on the couch under a blanket and watching a movie and eating popcorn together.
for their one year anniversary, toma had planned a special weekend for them at the beach. they would have a romantic picnic on the beach, then a romantic dinner at a fancy hotel nearby, then spend the night together for the first time at a beautiful room there. the next day, they would do some sightseeing and maybe spend the day at the hotel's spa together, getting massages or something. or they could swim in the hotel pool. little did he know, she was going to break up with him that day...
they were holding hands, walking on the beach, after their picnic. it was sunny earlier, but dark clouds had started to gather above them, blocking out much of the sunlight.
"are you cold?" toma asked her, about to unbutton his jacket to give to her.
"not really..." she replied blankly, her mind elsewhere, as she brushed her hair away from her face. the light breeze from before had grown stronge, colder.
something was wrong, but toma had no idea what. she looked troubled the last few days and even though she said she was looking forward to their anniversary, she did not seem very happy at all today. he kept asking her if there was something wrong, but she kept saying everything is fine.
"what's wrong? you've been like this all day...are you sick? do you want to go home?" toma asked, truly concerned about her.
that's when she stopped walking and slowly let go of his hand. she started to cry. "i'm sorry toma...we...we have to break up." she stammered. toma could only stare at her, speechless. did she really just say that?
she explained that she loved him, but she thinks she's still in love with her ex-boyfriend, whom she had met recently at the hospital. he said he missed her and she thinks she misses him too. toma was really upset...he tried to convince her that she should try to forget about that guy and stay with him...he loved her so much! but yui insisted that she did not want to continue like this and it was better that they break up now, or else in the future, it would just hurt more. toma grabbed her hand as she turned to leave, but she only looked at him once more, sadly, before she pulled toma's hand away and ran away from him.
that was the last time they talked to each other. sometimes they would walk by each other in the corridors of the hospital, but neither knew what to say and only nodded or a glanced at each other before they moved on.
this is why toma is surprised she showed up here today. remembering what happened brought tears to his eyes and he quickly wipes them away before she could see. luckily the lighting here is a little dark. toma is still in a daze when he suddenly hears yui laughing. she has such a cute laugh, too.
"toma, look at that painting. it kind of looks like my cat!" she giggled and pointed.
toma looked at the black and white painting, lines scribbled all over it. but somehow, it did look like her black and white cat. toma laughed. "it does look like her!" they looked at each other and smiled.
"toma..." her voice trembled as she spoke. she fidgeted with the beaded white clutch in her hands. "i'm really sorry we can't be together...but can't we be friends? i miss talking to you. i don't want us to act like strangers when we see each other at the hospital..."
toma thought for a moment and pouted cutely. "we'll always be friends! let's forget about what happened last year. and i miss talking to you too..."
as soon as he said that, yui suddenly hugged him tightly. "i'm so glad you feel the same way, toma! i'm really happy..." toma hugged her back and nodded, patting her back. but now that he's holding her in his arms, he knows that he doesn't feel the same way...he still loves her. he doesn't want to forget all the sweet moments they had together. but if he can't be her boyfriend, at least he can be her friend for now. though he'll always hope that she'll change her mind one day and come back to him.
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(please go here for Part 4: http://kate-firefly.livejournal.com/25192.html)
(please go here for Part 4: http://kate-firefly.livejournal.com/25192.html)
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Date: 2012-01-16 06:13 pm (UTC)brainstorming + writing this is both fun and frustrating....i've already changed my mind about why they broke up 3 times now. xD gakky was supposed 2 have some serious health problem twice now, but i decided against it, thank goodness. ^^
just spent some time figuring out all the things that will happen in the story, and i guess it's gonna end up being longer than i intended. >.< but it feels better now that i have a general idea of how long it will be and what's next after each "scene". i'm still not sure who toma will choose in the end. =P i'm gonna try 2 make both the tomapi and togakky parts really sweet, so that hopefully anyone reading will also have a hard time choosing!! haha...
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Date: 2012-01-18 01:53 am (UTC)i didn't watch that drama actually, but from the stuff people posted about it at LJ and tumblr, i think she seems like a great actress and pretty too. ^^
ohhh. lol. yeah, he is kinda nakatsu-like sometimes i guess. he'll be talking to himself a lot in this fic. xD
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Date: 2012-01-18 05:25 pm (UTC):D yeah still interested, I like your stories, there amusing but sweet :D (and some times :O *drool* heeee). Yes motivation haaa I lack that when I write, too easily distracted, I hop from one idea to another! Bad habit really...
Yeah she was really good, I preferred how she played the character to the anime series. Ouran was my introduction to J Drama so it is to blame for my fandom movement haaa its pretty 'what just happened here...' sort of drama and keeps pretty close to the manga (including the fact they still use some CGI effects to do bits). They actually have a moving coming out soon :O, to actually give us a decent ending HURRAAAH! haaaa!
Yaaaay more Nakatsu moments >.< I always found the talking to himself bits hilarious, I just keep imaging the OTT hand movements he does... *giggles*
...oh sorry for the essay... Ouran can do that to me haaaa
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Date: 2012-01-18 09:20 pm (UTC)ohh...i see. ^^ since i didn't watch the drama, maybe i can just watch the movie later. hehe.
haiiiiii. xDDD i love all his gesturing with his hands and stuff. lol.
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Date: 2012-01-18 10:45 pm (UTC)No probleeem! :P
Whooo! haaaaa sounds interesting :D haaa!
Me too, call it a guilty pleasure... (damn my dirty mind) I've tried to write some like that but I cant actually write it, I embarrass myself, even though the actual idea doesn't embarrass me just putting it down on to some permanent media. One day I'll get around to it, though I doubt it will ever leave my hard drive haaa!
It was soooooo adorkable! That was another fan-fiction idea that lasted about five seconds... being Mizkui's american friend (kinda like the SP but I thought this up before I saw it ;)) and being very american, (despite being a Brit... Ah well i do occasionally slip into an american accent, I blame going away to the states from a young age) very loud, it being near impossible to hide that she was a girl... the outcome is obvious really :P haaa
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Date: 2012-01-19 06:25 pm (UTC)hahaha....i know what you mean. well, u can always try writing it in a notebook or something and then hide it. xD
oh, this is off-topic, but i think it's awesome that u live in the UK and the summer olympics will be there...hehe. must be exciting 2 be in the UK right now...
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Date: 2012-01-19 06:46 pm (UTC)To be honest I live out in the sticks so the Olympics is quite a distant thing, though the regeneration of the area where they're holding it is a pretty good thing (can you tell I do travel and tourism! haaaa) It was impossible to get tickets though so just gonna be at home as usual, unless someone actually has some patriotic spirit and holds a party!
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Date: 2012-01-19 11:01 pm (UTC)ohhh. i see! ^^ i guess watching it from home is fine too. at least you can be comfortable while watching. =)