a sleepover..... (Part 3)

[tomas_room2]

me: (putting the glass of water beside him on the desk) here you go~

toma: (looks up at me and smiles) ah, arigatou ne.

me: (i smile at him and open the can and take a sip...) toma, the lights are off in her room, she's gone to sleep.

toma: (takes off his mask and takes a drink of water) eh? yokkata! (smiles cutely)

ahhhh. it's so nice to finally see toma's face again!! toma cuteness....ah....but he's still....a girl right now. a very very cute one, though. ~_~ wait a second...he looks like he's blushing?

me: toma...are you blushing?? ehh?

toma: (embarrassed) no i'm not! (he quickly changes the subject--) so...can i stop being a girl now? (laughs) this bra is itchy and making me uncomfortable...(scratches)

eh?? well, if he's not gonna tell me why, i shouldn't ask, but i wonder what got him blushing?? hmm. i was only away from the room for a few minutes...

me: wait, not yet, i just wanna take some pictures of us together first....can we, toma?

toma: (pouts) ehhh...(smiles) iyo.

i grab my camera and we stand close to each other, making cute faces and doing some cute poses....really...toma is so kawaii as a girl. and he's way~ more girly than i am. xD we're making one of those 'chu' faces again...when i can't help kissing him on the cheek. toma turns around, surprised, but he smiles sweetly and puts the camera down, wrapping his arms around me....and i hold him by his slim waist....i realize i'm about to kiss him while he's still a girl, but i don't care (and that somehow makes this even more hot??)....i close my eyes as toma tilts his head and leans over....

*knocking at the door*

crap!! we immediately let go of each other.

ellen: kate, i forgot to tell you, remember to make an extra bento for me tomorrow, for lunch. i'm not eating out tomorrow.

me: (standing near the door) ok!

ellen: thanks. good night!

me: night!

whew.....that was too close!! i look at toma, who is looking a little pale.

me: (whispers) daijoubu....(i come over and hold his hand) sorry, it was my fault, i forgot to lock the door, but luckily she didn't come in!!

toma: (smiles, his complexion returning to normal, quietly) it's ok....but let's lock the door now, so that i can change. (he takes off his wig and ruffles his hair)

me: (smiles) ok. and....we'll just keep it locked...if she wants to come in for some reason,  i'll just say i'm changing my clothes or something....(toma nods)

well, of course he has to change in my room....just in case ellen comes out...can't have her seeing him as a guy, coming out of the bathroom! but....almost naked toma in my bedroom....this is too tempting!!

toma: (pulls the curtains close and gets his clothes out of the bag and looks at me shyly...*blush* softly~) turn around...i'll tell you when i'm done. (he starts taking off the cardigan...)

me: (nervous) hai...

i sit on my bed and turn the other way and shut my eyes as toma begins to undress, just a few feet away from me....!!! maybe because my eyes are closed and it's so quiet in my room....maybe because i want him so bad....i hear everything he's doing so clearly!! i can almost see everything that's happening....he unwraps the scarf....starts pulling off his shirt, the soft fabric brushing over his skin as he slips it off....he unhooks and takes off the bra....(he's half naked now!! i panic and cover my already shut eyes with both hands!!) and he pulls the skirt down....pulls on his jeans, the rough denim rubs against his bare skin....his underwear...his...

right then, my alarm goes off!

my cell phone alarm!! yappe! it's a daily alarm that goes off at 11:30pm, to remind myself to get ready for bed. i open my eyes and frantically look for it, trying to remember where i left it. toma is also helping me look for it. i finally remember that it's in my shoulder bag, on the floor. i quickly take it out and turn it off. damn it....i hope ellen didn't hear it and come back here to ask what's going on....probably not....it's not that loud.

i stand back up and look at him....toma's half naked!
he didn't have time to put his shirt on yet, he hasn't even zipped up or buttoned his jeans. oh...toma! mm.....he looks like....like the 3rd picture from his An An photo shoot!! where he's holding the white shirt (except he's holding his white t-shirt now). half-naked, black calvin klein underwear low on his waist...part of his hip bones showing (and i see a slight bulge right below...!! oh...you're so hot. but...i want to see more...). except his jeans are not quite so low, of course. still...omg omg omg!!!!! those fit and muscular arms....his sexy toned chest and abs....he is too hot for words!!! and he's standing right in front of me.

me: (staring at him, looking up and down....oh, he takes my breath away!! *very turned on*.... softly~) oh....

toma: (*blush* quickly zips up and buttons his jeans, putting on his t-shirt, embarrassed) yamerou!

me: (quickly turn away) gomen!

toma: (embarrassed/nervous, kinda scolding) don't get too excited....remember, hanashi-san's room is right down the hall...

me: (embarrassed~) wakkateru yo~
(of course, my brain knows that, but my body doesn't really care!! i'm getting warmer and my heart is pounding...and my body is doing certain things~ that it should not be doing right now!!! idiot!! stop it.....think of something unsexy....THAT!! ok....ok.......calming down...)

toma: i'm done. (i turn around. toma stands there, 1 hand holding the cardigan, scarf and skirt, smiling at me.)

ah~ toma's a boy again.♥ kakkoii.....for a second, i can't help it....i start undressing him in my mind!! but i manage to stop myself....good lord, i want to see him naked! i somehow push the dirty thoughts from my mind and manage to smile back at him.

toma: (pouts cutely and walks over, sits down next to me on the bed, putting the clothes on my lap) thanks. and you can have the skirt.  i don't need it anymore. it's got an elastic band, it'll fit you. douzo~ (smiles)

me: (feeling the skirt....ahh, it's still warm. i pout sweetly & in a sweet voice) arigatou ne!

toma nods and smiles sweetly. he lightly touches my cheek and looks at me lovingly before he stands up to get another drink of water. i get up and put the clothes away in my closet and quietly take a few deep breaths to calm down....his light touch!!! it got me going again!

toma: so....what do you want to do now?

me: (still staring in my dark closet) eh?

toma: it's getting late, but i guess we can talk some more before we go to sleep, right?

me: (haven't moved, still trying to calm down) hai....

toma: daijoubu?

me: (i finally turn around and nod) mm.

toma: (laughs) your face is all red....(smiles) come here~ (sits down on the bed, gesturing for me to come join him)

me: hai....

well, he knows i want him, of course! it's not a secret. i go over to my desk first and rub the cold can of tea against my cheeks before sitting down on the bed next to him.

toma: (his hand close to his mouth, laughing shyly~) actually, could you turn on your desk lamp and turn off the lights?

i nod, though i don't like the idea of making the room darker and more romantic. i really wish i have as much self-control as he does, but, then again, THIS IS TOMA. and i've just seen him half-naked. if i was insanely hot and he had just seen me half-naked, then i'm sure he'd be just as aroused as i am! but i do as he says and when i turn around....!! toma's lying on the bed! resting his head on a pillow and playing with my cute, really soft plush giraffe, TG (Tall Giraffe. yes, i name my stuffed animals, and i don't come up with very creative names. xD) thank goodness toma looks so childish and adorable right now, or else the urge to jump on him would be overwhelming!! i slowly get on the bed and lie down next to him, resting on the other pillow. and toma turns on his side too, to face me.

toma: (cutely~) kawaii! (holding up TG)

me: hai....she's my favorite. the only one that can sleep with me...(*blush*) besides you.

toma: (flirty smile) souka... (holds TG so she's facing him, sweetly~) aren't you lucky, you get to sleep next to her every night!

me: (*blush* and laughs) hai...

toma: (laughs, holds TG so she's facing me, hugging her....his face turns serious, quietly) seriously though....i'm really happy i can stay here with you tonight.

he gazes at me lovingly....ah, i just get lost in his eyes....

me: (softly) toma...me too.

toma: thank goodness ellen couldn't tell i'm a guy! (laughs)

me: yeah!

toma: she's really cool and relaxed ne. sugeh~

me: sou des...she's so nice and sweet, too. i like to think of her as an older sister. i'm so grateful to her! i feel bad about lying to her tonight, kedo...

toma: (reassuring~) don't worry, she would understand you didn't want to....(curious) why did you use the name Tsuki for me though?

me: (purse my lips, explains) because like the moon, toma shines. you're gentle and quiet, pure and bright...and beautiful. actually, you remind me of the sun more. you're a good-looking sunshine boy ne! but since Tsuki is a girl's name, that's why...

toma: (purses his lips, scratches his head, shyly~) sou deska?

me: mm. Tsuki is the perfect name for u if you were a girl. and you really are so girly sometimes! (laughs)

toma: (annoyed) am not!

he notices he's hugging TG and quickly puts her back at the top of the bed. i laugh some more...

me: (pouts) no, it's a compliment! cuz you're even cuter when you're girly ne~

toma: (scratches his head, shyly) ehhh....nanka....arigatou. (laughs)

toma's phone rings. he sits up, puts one finger to his lip, asking me to be quiet, looks at the screen to see who's calling and answers it.

toma: moshi mosh. (mouths: "it's my manager")

i lie there, looking up at him as he's talking to his manager about work....he's so busy these days...but i'm so happy and proud of him. he's really so popular now, and he's being offered new roles continuously. (though i wish he would take a break. i'm a little worried he's working too hard. but of course, toma is a workaholic and he says he's fine, so....) so far, he's got supporting roles in a summer drama and autumn drama SP (a funny, conceited actor and a serious WWII police detective! sugoi!!), and his first 3 movies will be released this year!! soon, it's his 2nd one, Seaside Motel. there are already preview screenings now (eh....i can't wait to watch this movie and see that ero bed scene where toma is...well...doing that?! omg....!!)..... and hanamizuki's crank up was only at the end of march. i'm definitely looking forward to this movie the most!! such a sweet love story set in beautiful hokkaido~~

but what i'm most excited about is that ningen shikkaku will be released overseas, in hong kong, singapore and taiwan!! toma's gonna become an INTERNATIONAL STAR. (well, he already is, kinda, he's got fans all over the world. but, i mean, officially!!) though i don't know when this will all happen and whether or not toma will be able to go to these countries and promote, but i'm so psyched about it! finally, more people are realizing how talented and just completely BRILLIANT and AMAZING he is. truly....this is his year. and i'm so happy i can be here to support him.

but as he gets more popular, there will be more rumors and the paparazzi will follow him around more....the rumor about him dating satomi got me upset...not because i think it's true, but because it makes me afraid that one day people will discover that toma and i are a couple.

toma says goodbye to his manager and ends the call....i'm still lost in thought and don't notice he's lying down next to me again...

toma: (notices i look upset, gently) nani?

me: ano....i was just thinking about the rumor of you dating satomi since last year....

toma: (*sighs*) it's quite annoying, people keep asking or teasing me about it.... i hope it'll go away soon.

me: (lightly touch his arm) i hope so too. although...hmm....i wish it was a rumor about you and gakky dating. i like her. she's so cute and sweet!

toma: well...they're both nice girls...and pretty and talented actresses.

me: (frowning) hai...

toma: (worried i'm jealous) but of course i don't have any feelings for them, you know that!

me: (smile) of course....but i was just thinking about what if one day, people find out that we're dating....it would hurt your career. (i reach out and gently hold his hand)

toma: (smiles and looks at me intently...holds my hand tighter, reassuringly) they won't find out.

me: but what if they do?

toma: (thinks for a moment...quietly) i know that a lot of my fans have crushes on me and would be really upset if they find out about us. but...i need love in my life too...i think they will understand that. they might even be happy for us, after a while, once they accept the truth.... it might not be a bad thing at all....like hiro. (smiles) he not only announced he has a girlfriend, he married ayaka! and yet he's still popular and people are happy for them, right?

me: (well, but in their case, ppl feel sorry for her cuz she's sick...but that's true...maybe things will turn out ok even if people know toma's got a girlfriend, if by that time, he's super popular, like hiro was. i smile~) that's true...

toma: (frowns, worried) but really...did you believe the rumor about me and satomi at all when you first heard about it...did it upset you....

me: (without hesitation) not for a second, toma. (i smile sweetly at him and let go of his hand so i can stroke his soft cheek...) you're not like that....you wouldn't date two girls at once. you couldn't... (and i remember what toma said in the An An interview....how he wants to love one person deeply...i remember how happy i was, knowing that i'm that person, and that in a way...he mentioned me in the interview!)

toma: (smiles sweetly and looks at me intently....pulling me closer to him, softly~) skiida yo.

me: (quietly~) me too, toma...skiida yo. (i hold him and lean forward so our foreheads are touching now...toma nuzzles me...) i love you so much...

before i know it, we're kissing....softly...slowly....mm....it feels so sweet....until i start to get that feeling again....! i can't help it....my hand slides down from his back...to his slender waist....i suddenly have this strong urge to grab his butt!! that butt that he's always bragging about, how it's got a nice shape...and he's so right! and that anan pic where i can see part of it and his coin slot....!! oh... my hand drifts just a little to the back of his jeans.....but somehow...! i manage to break away from his kiss and pull away.

me: (nervously) maybe we should stop...i'm afraid...(of not being able to control myself!)

toma: (looks at me lovingly....smiling, gently) it's ok...

he ruffles his hair slowly, in a sexy~ way, and repositions himself so that he's resting his head on one arm, the other arm resting on that gentle curve of his waist. and he gazes at me with his sexy bedroom eyes and smiles a certain way...making me insane with desire. oh, toma......
must. have. you. NOW.

but then i realize....EHH!! he's looking almost exactly like that first anan pic!!!! is he trying to seduce me?? or is he just kidding around??? i don't stay to find out...i quickly jump off the bed, only saying "thirsty!" to him, and go over to my desk to get a drink of water. i hurriedly take a few gulps of water, before i realize that it's toma's. toma smiles in that very irresistable, flirty way, gets off the bed and comes up beside me...

toma: (pouts cutely) that's my glass of water.

me: (really nervous) i'm sorry, i'll get you another one. (take a few steps backward, away from his hotness)

toma: (laughs) calm down. you don't have to pretend....(he takes a few steps toward me, looks straight at me, quietly, in the sexiest voice possible~) i want you too.

i almost choke on my water!! *coughs like crazy* toma quickly pats my back, trying to help me. he...he said it!! even if we both know it...but to hear him say it straight out like that!! ehhhhhhhh!!!


sorry, i need more time to edit part 4 (it's really~ long! xD)
and haven't finished the ending (Part 5), so....here's a short update, Part 3.5. haha.

gomen! but i think i'll really be able to post up part 4 tomorrow (even if i don't finish part 5), no worries!

(Part 3.5~)

Comments

[yohana-lestari.livejournal.com]

hm? nande? yes, i was reading part 4 fufufu xD well, i was fascinated by the figure of Toma in there, n "me", hm i think she's sooo excited (who wouldn't be excited, when Toma there beside u) ahahahaha xDDD

[kate-firefly.livejournal.com]

ohhh. thank goodness you liked it!! arigatooooo!! ~_~ whew...xD
yeah ne, it's a dream come true to be able to be in bed with toma. lol.

when i reread it now, i actually think it's kinda too exagerrated and funny...lol. but i'm glad you like it!! recently someone else read it and she liked it too...hehe. i'm so happy there's still new ppl reading my fic and liking it.

[yohana-lestari.livejournal.com]

sorry for the late reply, i'm little bit busy xp yupyupyup urwel, kate xD ahahahaha i wish that could be happen xp woah, yeah i really like it, but it's just a fiction, rite :( in real life, maybe it will not happen huhuhu

[kate-firefly.livejournal.com]

it's ok. ^^
yeah. xD
but daydreaming about it is good enough for me. haha...