a sleepover..... (Part 3.5)

[tomas_room2]

me: (*gasps*...calms down a little) i'm ok...i'm ok...       

toma: (smiles...bites his lip...quietly~) you're cute when you're nervous, but really...don't be. umm....i'm going to tell you something, but don't freak out, ok?

me: (already so freaked out....i think anything else he says can't freak me out more!) ok... (i nervously take another gulp of water)

toma: (shyly, scratches his head) i...i know where you hide your AnAn magazine.


WHAT?!!!

i immediately spit out the water, and toma barely gets out of the way in time. he cringes and has one eye shut...(oh, so THAT'S why he was blushing earlier when i came back in the room!)

me: gomen!

toma: (smiles. cutely~) yappari...

as i wipe the water from my chin and the carpet, toma casually walks over to my bookshelf, where i keep my magazines. a neat upright row of magazines....all level in the front, except for some magazines pushed further to the back. toma pulls out one of them. the anan issue with him on the cover.

me: (i stand up, embarrassed) how did u know...

toma: (nervous) i didn't mean to....i was looking at your bookshelf. i noticed your row of magazines was not even at the front. i thought i'd even it out for you. i was pulling forward those magazines, when i saw it. and well....u wrapped it in plastic?? (laughs)

me: (really embarrassed) eh....i...i just wanted to make sure the cover does not get dirty or anything. (OH NO....i hope he doesn't notice....i....i sometimes got a little carried away and kissed him, his picture....over the plastic....his face, neck...chest....abs....and i would leave some faint lip imprints on the plastic!)

toma: (looks closely...sees the lip imprints, teasingly) eh....what have you been doing with me?? (laughs)

me: (i quickly grab the magazine away from him, very embarressed and guilty!!) nothing!

i can't help staring at him on the cover now. oh toma....your underwear is so...dangerously low. but....oh, pull it lower! (i'm vaguely aware that i'm holding my breath....) so close! oh...take it off!! your body is so....!! you make me want to....!!!

and i remember a part of enshinge's translation of the interview:

Wanting to claim his everything…
You’ve never seen this wild and seductive naked body belonging to Ikuta Toma-san.
His breaths, warmth, smell… When you seek out each other as your hearts direct you to and love each other, it’s a moment of pure bliss.
Once you’ve felt his everything, you never want to give him to anyone else.

oh
my
god.....

"felt his everything"!!!!!!!!!!

oh yes....i want to...
i came really close to.....
we really almost....in my hotel room back in february...

and
"you can almost hear his rough breathing".

oh toma....
i've heard it.....
and your sweet scent, your warmth....
i've experienced it just a few months ago....



and i remember how i first found out about his AnAn photo shoot......

it was april 11 (april 12 in japan) i was checking my email, when toma sent me a message! eh! the subject is:
ikuta toma. naked!!??

WHAT??!

i quickly click on it. toma only wrote:
this is embarrassing, kedo.

and attached is a pic of the anan magazine on his desk.

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!

i'm shocked, but so happy for him!! the 1st thought that jumps into my mind is that "YES!! he finally gets an AnAn shoot! i knew he would this year!!" and my second thought is "dkfgjoejxz (>////<) he's so hot!!!! *DIES*" and i email him back right away, though it was hard for me to think straight right then:
omedetou!!
sexyyyyyyyyyyyy.♥

and the following days, i was so nervous. i asked him if there was a female model with him at the photo shoot and he said no, but he wouldn't answer me when i asked if he was completely naked or not!! i really hope not!! i mean....i want~ to see him naked...badly. but...i don't want all the girls of the world to be able to see him so clearly...fully...naked from behind in the magazine, like in jin's photo shoot or anything!!! ....luckily he wasn't. whew!!

of course i was upset at first....hundreds of thousands (actually, more, if i also count people who see the pics online, not just ppl who buy the magazine! and what about GUYS that are looking at him??? is it like millions of people?!!!) of girls can see him almost naked anytime they want now....violating him with their eyes...thinking dirty thoughts about him!! but then again....i'm also happy and proud that my boyfriend's incredible hotness is making girls (and boys?) all over the world lose their minds. xD

and i was losing my mind myself....couldn't stop thinking about him. so...tempting...seductive...inviting... i didn't get much sleep for that whole week! i think the best way to describe what i was going through is ke$ha's Your love is my drug song (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o1JXZ1ZXRjw). ok...of course i didn't get that crazy and desperate, but really....that was kinda how i felt!!! the power that sexy toma has over me.....!!! his yummy body....unf. WANTS. oh...i just want to kiss him...lick him all over. omg!!! help me!! (>/////<)



toma: kate? kate?

me: (finally snaps out of it...still clutching the magazine. my heart's beating fast and i'm feeling very hot~) eh?

toma: you're all spaced out. (embarrassed laugh) please stop staring at me (points at the magazine cover). you're making me uncomfortable! (laughs in that shy cute way, covering his mouth & looking down)

me: (embarrassed) i'm sorry! (i quickly put the magazine back in its place on the shelf, pushed back a little)

goodness....i can't look him straight in the face now....i've gotta calm down!! i turn away from him, face my desk, and take a few gulps of the sweet tea....i know my face must be so red now....i quickly say i need to go to the bathroom and rush out the door, still not looking at toma, only hearing him say "souka..." as i close the door behind me. i spend a long time in there...trying to calm down...it's embarrassing, how his anan pics have such a huge effect on me!!! baka! .....finally i open the door.

me: EH! (i almost bump into to him. toma's standing right outside!) you scared me!

toma: (whispers) gomen! you were taking so long, i thought i'd check on you...

me: oh...(ah, he's so sweet!) i'm fine. (smiles) come on, let's go back...

toma: (pouts cutely and nods) mm~

i glance at her room before we go get back inside my room. still dark. whew....i've calmed down a lot, but i'm still....i can't help thinking of toma's hotness on the cover of AnAn again! i sit down on my bed. oh....toma.... i get turned on immediately...it's like a reflex! i try my best not to picture toma half-naked as he smiles so sweetly and sits down next to me on the bed. ah....i never get tired of seeing him smile.♥

but i can't help wondering....should i just ask him?? i'll just do it.

me: (quietly, looking down) toma...

toma: (sweetly) mmn?

me: (hesitant) this is a really stupid question, but....i was thinking about....were you....for the anan photo shoot, were you...really naked under that sheet? or did you just pull your underwear down really low and make it seem that way?

toma: (laughs, scratches behind his ear nervously...) ano....at first we tried just pulling my underwear down low....but the photographer said he wasn't getting the right feeling from the photos....he said i need to be really naked so the mood will be right....dakara....yes, i really had nothing on...

me: (i can't help staring at him...quietly) souka....(OMG......i thought so......!!!! now i can't stop thinking about that part of his body that thin white sheet was barely covering up!! this is not good. this is not good!! ba-ka, stop it!! quick....think of THAT so that u can calm down...)

toma can tell i'm obviously too excited~, but he only smiles and gently holds my hand and looks straight at me....and now he looks so serious...making me worried all of a sudden.....what is it toma?


***Part 4 will be....umm... the rating is R!
if you don't feel comfortable reading, u can just read it halfway and skip to the end or something? (sorry!!)***

(Part 4~)


(>////< i am insane to write this!!! this is so INCREDIBLY embarrassing!!! but....my excuse is i'm just expressing what many toma fans are secretly thinking....right?? umm...i've re-read and edited it so much, i'm not sure if it's that good anymore, but at least it's a nice, long read, right? lol.)

OK, U KNOW WHAT! I'M LOCKING PART 4! SORRY.
it's just too much....i don't want a lot of ppl to read it. if u want to read it, just add me as a friend and i'll add u, and then u can see it. and this way, i can get an idea of how many ppl are actually reading my story, too.  thanks!

oh, in case you're skipping Part 4,
i'll link to Part 5 from here, too. ~_~

i'm really happy and flattered that some of you signed up for LJ accounts just so you can read Part 4 of my fanfic!!! ~_~ but i think it's really worth it. haha. but in case u wanna skip it, here's part 5.

(Part 5~)

Comments

eh?

[(Anonymous)]

erm part 4 doesn't work D:
but it's sooo good
is there any way i can read it?

Re: eh?

[kate-firefly.livejournal.com]

yes, u can still read it!
i already said above, how u can read it. lol.

"if u want to read it, just add me as a friend and i'll add u, and then u can see it. and this way, i can get an idea of how many ppl are actually reading my story, too. thanks!"

so just add me as a friend, okie. =)
(u'll need an LJ account, of course. it's real quick to sign up for one.)